This past week I have been thinking about a few things. "What if I had been better... What if I had said something different... What if I hadn't done that." All of these have been going through my mind. All of the what if's. All these get me thinking, why didn't I do this better or why did I say that to that person. It shows you that everyone isn't perfect and that people make mistakes. The question is... can you forgive the person for making that mistake. People say that they are sorry... but do they really mean it? There is a big difference between meaning something and not. Usually people accept the person's apology because they want to stay friends. Other times people don't forgive the person because they know that something like this will happen in the future and that the person is lying. Lying is about the worst thing you could do to a friend... yet so many people do it anyway thinking that nothing will happen. Something that bothers me about all of this is that the people that get mad at you... they get mad over the slightest things. "What if I get mad at them... What if they apologize?" are what is going through their mind. They get mad and then expect you to apologize for something you don't even think that you did. 

ANYWAYS I have been sitting here thinking about what to write for this post... "What if I write this... What if I put this in?". This is why I named this post what if... haha random I know.... sorry for wasting your time.

Memories. They are what you remember for the rest of your life. Whether it is learning how to ride your bike, having someone lie to you, or even going to a sleepover. These are all memories. Everyone in this world has at least one memory that they remember. When you are sad or lonely think about the happy memories that you have shared with the people around you, and you will overcome your troubles. However, many people also have bad memories that haunt them for their life. Losing a loved one, moving away, or your family breaking apart. All of these are troubles that many people can't overcome. For me, if you put ALL of these things and squish them together... this is what my life is like. It is like a roller coaster that I can't get off from. From Grade 1 onwards, things have been good and bad. And no one can change that. This probably happens to everyone sometime in their life. All the memories that I have had from childhood till now, all of these have made me who I am today. Some I am proud of and some I am not. But no one can change the way someone is just by telling them to change. The memories of someone are unique. Not 1 person has the same memories as another. It makes them who they are. If you don't think that you can remember some of you memories then just remember this. In the end, the memories that we hold will always be with us. 

Haha that was a little weird to write.... and may have not come out right sorry!

First of all Happy Valentine's Day e

ven if it is late. The great day of love has past and now it is time to move on. I need to inform you that the cruise that I said I was going on... ya well I am not going... my mom said that it is too much money... so now I have no idea what to do over March Break. Sadly, it seems that this March Break will not be very fun... due to the fact that there is nothing for me to do and I am not with my friends.

Now for some of the bad parts of my weekend. This past Family Day (Monday) my friend and I went to Pacific Mall to go shopping. There we were SUPPOSE to meet our other friend. However as we were pulling up to the parking lot, 

my friend called to make sure that that other friend w

as there. "Bad News Guys... I won't be there till 2" was all we heard on the phone. We looked at the clock in the car and it r

ead 11:30. That means we had a whole 2 and a half hours to kill waiting. Even being pissed off we still waited. While we were in the mall walking around we decided to text her to see if she was coming any earlier... then we finally got a text that said "Guys! I am in the parking lot wait by the arcade for me" we were really happy so we waited... and waited... and waited. She never came. That made us REALLY mad and wondering why she would lie to us like that. We tried to call like 100 times and we never got an answer. We text

ed her and still no answer. She finally came at 3:30 and we shopped... to make everything a little bit worse at 4:30 she had to go. Only 1 hour and she had to go and all she said to us was "Happy Shopping!" 

That next day at school we were really pissed at her but she had no clue why. So she just acted normal around us... but something was off... Things just kept getting worse... That night my friend sent the girl a message on facebook sayin

g why we were mad. Then the girl replied with some random excuses and soon after that she turned things around so that she could be mad at us. She ended up talking to us again... but deep down in our hearts we still haven't forgiven her (or at least I haven't)

Enough about all that and move onto today. I needed to get a filling for a cavity I had... It was my first one so I had NO IDEA what to expect... when I saw the needle I got really nervous and was like wishing for it not to go in. As they were putting it in there was a few tears here and there... but I lived... the rest wasn't so bad cause my mouth was frozen.... haha I am a wimp

Wow I had so much to write... sorry if

 I bore you guys! 

Now for some random stuff... it is really cool and YES I know all of these people and this is in Calgary.

St. Donat~ March Break Plans

Sorry I haven't posted in a while... well after my trip I got really sick and didn't go to school... also I was a bit sad from the trip. One of my friends got really mad at me for something that no one thought I did... she ended up forgiving me but I still feel a bit weird. I mean I don't get how everyone can forgive someone so easily. The day that I went to school everyone thought that nothing happened between me and my friend... I still haven't forgave her but I guess you could say that there is nothing to be mad at... and I guess your right. The trip was ok... not as much fun as it could have been but it was still good.

Now for something that is coming up soon. March break! I plan to go with my friends family on a cruise as long as my mom comes with me. I really want to go cause then it is like a dream come true. Going on vacation with your friends has always been my dream, it just has never come t

rue. If this all turns out then over the Family Day long weekend we will go shopping. Even if it doesn't i still want to go and hang out with them somewhere. School has been ok... had to catch up on the work that I missed so it has been a bit crazy but it is all settling down so it is all good (^_^) The next month will be full of surprises.