The No Name Post

I was thinking what to write for this entry.... but I couldn't really think of anything.... so that is why the title is the no name post... Although there is one thing that has been bugging me recently...

I have this friend, who always gets mad at me for the littlest things. So she had gotten mad at me again and I had to apologize, again. But this time when I apologized she told me that she always acts happy because I am always not. She had also said that the only people that she can be who she wants with are the rest of my friends. As I was reading that I looked at the names, and saw that it was all of my other friends, except me. This has happened to be once before with another one of my frie

nds. She told me that she doesn't think of me as her best friend. Well this one did the exact same thing. I makes me feel really sad that even though you feel that that person is your best friend, but it turns out that they don't think of you as their best friend. It's always this way. Whenever I think someone is my best friend, they either totally ditch me for other people, or they actually tell me that they don't feel that I am their best friend. I guess that I shouldn't get close to people like I have been. So far, it has ended up in "I don't think of you as my best friend." two times already. It makes me feel kind of sad. I try so hard for them, but I guess I am just not good enough to be their best friend. It hurts to see those words... it really does. But I feel that telling someone is better than just ditching them all together. I just want to be best friends with everyone, but now I know, life isn't perfect when it comes to that. Things always turn out bad for me anyway, so I don't know why I except so much.

One a better note, I finished the banner.... It looks a little but plain, but whatever, I am not good with picking out guy photo's. Those are the two guys that I love right now! But there are more... haha but there were no good pictures... so whatever. Sorry for the plainness again. It kind of looks like fall too... I don't know why... it just looked good like that.